Surviving the IB

I mentioned in my first post in nearly two years that I’d been studying the IB, and at some point wanted to write a post about it. Though I’m not really sure I have any special wisdom to offer, I have now totally completely utterly finished the IB, having got my results today, and it feels wrong to have barely written about something that my life has basically revolved around for the last two years.

I started the IB in September 2016, after leaving it to the last minute to decide whether to do A-Levels at my old school sixth form or swap to the local college for IB. For those (read: 80% of the global population) who don’t have a clue what the IB is – here’s the basic rundown:

  • IB stands for International Baccalaureate
  • It’s equivalent to UK A-levels
  • You take 6 subjects (3 standard, which is kinda like an AS level, and 3 higher which are closer to full A levels)
  • You also study Theory of Knowledge and that’s examined by a presentation and essay, the grades of which are combined with the grade for a 4000-word essay on a topic of your choice to produce a score out of 3
  • Each subject is out of 7 points (7=A*, 6=A etc) and adds up to 45 points
  • You also have to do 50 hours each of sport, service and creative activities and a project based on these three strands which don’t have any points attached but are required to gain the diploma

So yeah, that’s what I’ve spent the last couple of years doing. IB generally has a reputation for being quite challenging (aka bloody difficult), but I remember thinking in the first term that it really wasn’t very hard?? I think I actually asked my tutor if I had missed some massive chunk of work or something? Turns out, they just make the first term easy and then start piling on the work after Christmas, and don’t really stop – the summer holidays were basically an extra term, because exams are really early on in May.

Second year was especially hard – it seemed like there was coursework after coursework, then mocks, then oral exams, and it just never ended – if anything, reaching the final exams was a relief because all we had to be doing was revising! It was especially tough at some points too when there were issues with my coursework due to various teachers, and it felt like I was working myself to the bone only for everything to go wrong. That was one of the reasons I actually burst into tears when I opened my results – I was so scared all the work I put in would be for nothing, like with some of my coursework, that it was such a shock for it to actually be reflected in my results. Even thinking about my score now I’m starting to happy cry!!

IB was an amazing experience though. Yes, it was hard and felt like it was never going to end, but the feeling of achievement at finishing it – and with a score above my predicted grades and way above what I even dreamt of achieving – is the best feeling I’ve ever had, and possibly the proudest I’ve ever been of myself. I’ve formed some amazing friendships – what can I say, there’s nothing to bond a group of 40 teenagers like two years of academic hell – and would do it again (only slightly ironic given I spent two years mocking a poster which quoted someone saying they would absolutely choose to do IB again). It was a crazy couple of years, and I’m honestly not sure I know how to relax anymore, but it taught me how much stronger I am than I thought, and how I can do so much more than I think I can.

I think the best way to describe IB would be in the words of an ex-student who came in to talk to us at the start of second year – prior to this we’d just had visits from students who scored 45 and made a career out of giving study advice to IB students, so this guy who scored around 32 was a breath of fresh air. He told us honestly that second year was going to be shit – that we would be so stressed we’d burst into tears at knocking a cup of tea over (though this is indeed a very sad occasion) and that it would be hideously difficult at times, but he also said that the feeling of putting your pen down after the final exam and knowing you’d survived the IB – even if you didn’t pass it – would make it all worth it. That advice really kept me going in the last few months, and is so, so true. There’s probably some deep analogy for the struggles of life in there, but I’ll leave that as a mystery, seeing as my brain has now officially signed out for summer!

I have no idea if this post was interesting or not, but it was fun for me to write down a bit of the rollercoaster that was IB – and if you’ve got any questions about it obviously just ask!

 

I’m Not Really Freaking Out Anymore (+ things are changing round here!)

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You might remember that a few weeks ago, when I was just starting college, I wrote a couple of not-too-cheery posts about how I was feeling (original here and update here – short version, I was terrified and missing everybody and questioning my choice slightly). Now, a month on, I’m feeling very different indeed so I thought I’d give you a final little update bit, in case you were vaguely interested or felt like me when you first started college.

So, first things first – I mentioned I was thinking about it in my update post but I’ve now swapped from Environmental Systems & Societies to Biology (at standard level). I’m enjoying it so far – this sounds kinda twisted but I’ve always struggled a bit with biology, especially during GCSE and I kinda like having the familiarity of that challenge?? I don’t really understand myself but I’m finding it OK so yeah, that’s the main thing. Other than that, I’ve kept my subjects the same and am enjoying almost all of them – we all have a bit of an issue with our maths studies teacher but other than that it’s all good, especially Spanish and Film Studies! (I’m actually actively looking forward tomorrow because I only have two lessons – we’re writing and filming telenovelas in Spanish and then learning how to use the cameras and shooting our film noir we’ve been working on for the past few lessons in Film Studies so that should be fun.) I’ve got the beginnings of a group of friends within IB and a group in the extracurricular academic academy thing I do so that’s good, and the Co-op bags of 5 cookies for £1 are getting very popular.

The missing friends and school, which was a big issue for me to start with has really settled down. I keep in contact with my old friends to varying degrees and have been in to see them at school a couple of times, and I’ve actually found there are some “friends” I don’t miss at all now I’m not forced to see them. It probably also helps a lot of my close friends were from out of school anyway. I do occasionally get pangs of, weirdly, missing GCSEs – I think because the work was easier and there was familiarity and people you’ve known since forever? Idk, it’s weird. College and IB was definitely the right choice for me and obviously I still struggle occasionally but what I’m trying to say is it gets so much easier. Everyone says it and you never believe it but in the last week or so I’ve started feeling so much happier coming home from college and it’s great. I’ve also started trumpet lessons, choir and a thing called Jazz Project at college so I’m just getting to know so many people! So yeah, overall yay 🙂

Now onto the ‘things changing’ bit…I’m going to start being more organised. Or try to at least. So I’m going to try and post regularly on Tuesdays, Fridays and Sundays, with a bonus ‘music of the month’ post at the end of the month. I don’t know if I’ll set a schedule of what I’m going to post, but I’ll see what evolves over the next few weeks and let you know!

Thanks for reading this mega rambley vaguely pointless post…

-AOT

PS this is my favourite song atm so you should definitely listen to it…

How To (Try To) Revise

First off, before I start, have a quick motivational message:

As you probably/maybe/don’t know, I’m in the middle of every British teenager’s favourite thing ever, GCSEs. Lucky me! I thought that as I’m getting in some much revision practice (what better thing could I spend my life doing?!), I might as well share a few things that I’ve figured out work for me, in case they help you at all…

Preventing Procrastination

I will be the first to admit, I am a master procrastinator. I almost feel like I’m so skilled at it I should put it on my CV. But, luckily for future me opening my exam results on 25th August, I’ve got a few methods of beating procrastination when it comes to revision.

First of all, deal with your phone/laptop/other electronic device that distracts you. The first option is to just turn it off and, if you need an extra barrier against just switching it on again, leaving it in another room. Preferably a long way away, with a good few stairs separating you and it. But what if, like me, you use said device for music or to time each revision session? If that’s the case, I recommend either putting your phone on aeroplane mode and, if you have one, using a Bluetooth speaker so you can leave your phone in another room and still hear the music – or at least leave it on the other side of the room. If you absolutely have to have  your wifi on for some reason – for example, I use the free version of Spotify for my music – then change your settings so you either don’t get any notifications at all, or do what I did – change them all to just be icon badges (except, for me, texts and Facebook messages, though I have gone through and muted a load of FB conversations to stop them from being distracting). That way, you can still see when you’ve got a notification (or not, depending on what you prefer), but you’re not constantly being reminded and are therefore less likely to get sucked into spending three hours on the internet when you just meant to check something really quickly.

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Replace critical thinking with biology/chemistry revision and OH HEY LOOK IT’S ME {via}

If you’re going to listen to music, I recommend either listening to something very ~background~ and possibly instrumental (I recommend Lucky Chops, Ludovico Einaudi, 2Cellos, The Piano Guys and Vitamin String Quartet) or to a playlist full of songs you know really well. Otherwise, you (or at least I) run the risk of using a song I don’t know that I want to skip/know the name of as an excuse to get up and use my phone, which rarely ends well.

Another way I often procrastinate is by accidentally extending my breaks. By, like, two hours. Oops. One way to try and stop this is to set a time limit for your breaks, and set an alarm *without* a snooze option. You can still ignore it, but it’s less likely. Also, try to decide ahead of time what you’re going to spend your break doing – making a cup of tea, having a shower, watching one episode of your favourite TV show (but make sure it really is just one episode), texting a friend for ten minutes – and then make sure you do that, and only that. This way you have something specific to look forward to and are less likely to just waste your break on social media or procrastinating doing something else. Not that I’ve ever done that. Nope, not me…

Also, write out what revision you’re doing at the start of each day, including what topics you’re hoping to target, and how long each is going to take, and when you expect to finish each session. This will (hopefully) stop you from spending the first ten minutes of each session deciding what to do and seeing when you *could* finish by will help to keep you motivated.

My Favourite Revision Techniques

Right, now onto the hard bit where, unfortunately, the odd bit of brain power is actually required. *sigh*. (though pro tip: chocolate and tea are good brain boosters. Or at least, they make the revision more bearable)

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Possibly the only time Trump’s been right about anything ever {via}

I still don’t feel like I’ve fully figured out what methods of revision work best for me, and they definitely vary from subject to subject, but I have a few fall-back methods.

  • For subjects like history and music, I’ll make a timeline covering everything that happened in that time period/showing everything that happens in each set work, because I find that helps me get the order of stuff straight in my head, and helps me to locate points I need for my music essays (because to get full marks in music you have to state AND locate, yay) and also helps me remember the structure of each piece. For geography, I’ve made mind maps for all of my case studies, and then done some diagrams for stuff like weathering, coastal processes, formation of a hurricane etc. For the sciences, I’ve got a mix of mind maps and note cards, partly because a load of my notes are from previous exams. I have remade some of my notes as mind maps, though, for example electrolysis and homeostasis, because I find that seeing it all together on one page instead of spread over four or five cards really helps me.

    A bad photo but a pretty timeline

  • Once I’ve made my notes, I then try and read them through and then, from memory, write down everything I can remember and see how well I did. Often, I’ll wait a bit until I’ve done another subject or something then do it to try and get it more long term memory and less short term omg I just did this I should know it. Also, when I’m marking these I often don’t tick stuff I got write but just correct mistakes and write in everything I forgot in a different colour. That way, I’m reinforcing it by writing it out again and also I can get a visual idea of how much stuff I can remember and how much I still have to learn. 
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    If Justin Bieber can learn from his mistakes, so can you. THERE’S STILL HOPE FOR YOU OUT THERE SOMEWHERE {via}

  • I’ll also get other people to test me, and make sure I note down anything I get wrong to look over again.
  • Additionally, if I get a question wrong or just come up with a random question or topic I feel I need to revise, I’ll make a note of it on a Post-It stuck above my desk, which reminds me to go back and look over it.
  • If there’s something specific you just have to learn – chemical tests, the reactivity series, particular definitions – it’s also worth being tested multiple times (with a few days inbetween each time) to check they’ve really gone into your long term memory.
  • On the topic of definitions, if you have time then for subjects like biology or music when specific wording is really important or you might get questions such as “what is a sitar/hemiola/sonata form/other musical thing”, then it’s worth making a list of definitions and trying to remember them. Even if it’s only a one-mark question, every little helps, and you may as well lose the marks because you didn’t know the stuff rather than because you screwed up the wording.
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    And at least pretty pages of revision make for pretty Instagram photos to post when you’re busily procrastinating, even if you don’t end up learning any of it.

  • Use mnemonics to remember stuff – however stupid, or seemingly illogical, if they make the stuff stick in your head, use them! For example, one some boys in my chemistry class came up with for flame tests is

Love chemistry (lithium – crimson)

So you (sodium – yellow)

Play like (potassium – lilac)

Cristiano Ronaldo and (calcium – (brick) red)

Become a god (barium – apple green)

  • Make an effort not to ignore the stuff you know you struggle with – often if I get something wrong multiple times when being tested I’ll remember it because I remember getting it wrong, if that makes any sense. 
  • This is a bit random, but try and revise in different places. Apparently it’s scientifically proven that working in different environments helps you remember stuff – if you’re always in the same place you get into a subconscious kind of mindset where you can only remember specific things under those same circumstances. For example, it always feels much harder to do a past paper under full exam conditions, because I’m so used to revising at my desk with music on in the background and a cup of tea.
  • If you’re revising a language, I highly recommend Memrise for learning vocab, and if you have a speaking exam, remember that there’s a limit to the questions you can be asked – both in terms of time and content – and remember the teacher wants you to pass just as much as you do! On that note, if you ever think you’ve got no chance in an exam, remember that you have spent however long being taught that, so chances are there’s some knowledge somewhere in your brain that you can use – and however bad your teacher is, they won’t have taught you nothing over the last two years because amazingly, it looks bad for them if their whole class fails as well as being a pain in the butt for you.
  • Finally, a couple of days before the exam, when you’ve done most of your revision, go through the syllabus and check if any topics make you go WHAT IS THAT I SWEAR I HAVE NEVER HEARD OF RETENTION VALUES EVER (ahem yeah that might’ve happened to me), in which case highlight them all and then go back through and look them up.

In The Exam

Finally, I just have a couple of tips for in the exam itself. Firstly, DO NOT PANIC! And if an exam doesn’t go as well as you would hope, stick it in a box and move on – don’t let it make you extra freaked out about the rest of your exams, because that will probably mean you don’t do as well.

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yeah, just don’t do this, or at least keep it as an internal thing {via}

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No, no you cannot. {via}

Also, read all the questions, really carefully. Don’t skip the intro bit at the start because HEY THERE MIGHT BE A SNEAKY QUESTION IN THERE LIKE COMPLETE THIS DIAGRAM OF COVALENT BONDING THAT YOU WALTZ STRAIGHT ON PAST (not that I did that in a past paper this morning nope I’m not bitter not at all). And finally, if there’s a question you have absolutely no idea about, leave it till the end and then come back to it, then read the question again, see if there are any clues in the question itself or even elsewhere in the paper, and try and think if you can see any links to another topic that they might be asking you to apply knowledge from. Just try not to leave any gaps, because even if you think you’ve written complete bullshit (aka every English essay I write ever), the examiner might  be able to find some marks in there. Oh, and DO WHAT THE QUESTION SAYS AND DON’T WRITE OUTSIDE THE BOX because that’s just a stupid and really irritating way to lose marks.

Now, go revise.

 

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Good luck!

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THE Most Embarrassing-Yet-Oddly-Hilarious Situation Ever

For those of you that are new here, or maybe just aren’t deranged stalkers avid fans that know every detail about my life (What, you mean some of you just come for the music recommendations, rather than my sparkling wit and sarcastic humour?) (Me, sarcastic?) (NO, NEVER), you may not know but I have a job waitressing at a local football club. It’s not the best job in the world but hey, it’s a job and money and for a 15 year old that’s not bad, eh?

Anyway, what’s that got to do with embarrassing situations we can all have a giggle over, I hear you ask? (“what’s that got to do with embarrassing situations we can all have a giggle over?”). Well, ask and thou shalt receive and all that, so here you go:

At work today, about half an hour, twenty minutes before the end (luckily!) I was clearing one of the boxes with the girl I was working with, and we were chatting to another girl who works there. I was just having a glass of water and she was eating a chicken wing that was leftover from a buffet (leftovers are basically the best part of the job, to be honest). I had earlier told her that they were really spicy, and she immediately put it down. Now, however, she went “How do you know these are spicy” (Spoiler: I’d had them in a buffet there a week or so before, when my mouth was left on fire). She picked one up and started eating it, getting about halfway through before her face changed and she went “Crap, they really are spicy!”. You probably had to be there, but it was just hilarious, her face…

Unfortunately, at this point I was at mid-swallow with my water, and in an effort not to spray it all over the tablecloth, I ended up semi-choking which, I can assure you, is a highly unpleasant experience. Unfortunately, water then started leaking through the hand clamped over my mouth in a desperate attempt to stem the flow of any kind of liquid. But the body doesn’t obey the brain, and sadly this doesn’t work. I ended up actually being semi-sick, although I didn’t realise this at first – I thought the only thing coming out was water! Sadly, as a few of the other girls confirmed, this wasn’t the case 😦 (they described it as white and lumpy – ew – though apparently I managed to swallow most of it, if that’s any kind of consolation…). Pretttyyy embarrassing, huh?

However, for some reason this was absolutely hilarious to the other girls and me…when I coughed afterwards I was immediately like, “THAT WAS ONLY A COUGH GUYS, DON’T WORRY” and the whole thing got vaguely farcical when our boss dealt with it by essentially just telling us to air-freshen the room to oblivion and a couple of the girls mistook a soap sud on one of the chairs for sick, and freaked out. Hahaha.

I think it’s safe to say, however, that I’m glad it happened near the end, and I will be VERY mindful about how I drink water in the future! Luckily there were no guests in the (executive and expensive) box, because that could’ve been VERY awkward (moreso that it already was, it that’s even possible…). Irritatingly, even though I’ve changed clothes and now had a bath, there’s still a faint scent of sick clinging to me. *sigh*…

Oh, one last thing! I just want to say a BIG thank you to everyone in the Blog Squad for checking I was OK (before I explained I wasn’t ill, as such, and it wasn’t full-on vomit-fest, if that makes sense), especially Elly, Sydney, Jill (also thanks to Jill for the uncontrollable and infectious virtual laughter), Samantha and Life of a Secret Girl (sorry if I missed anybody out!)

Well, I hope this post made a few of you laugh…what embarrassing stories can you share to make me feel better about mine? 🙂 Thanks for reading, I hope I haven’t grossed you out too much!

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Reason To Be Happy #1

Finishing the revision I have to do today.

100 Days of Happiness {day 71} – More DIY And A Minor Miracle

Lets go with the DIY bit first:

I made loooots of stuff on Tuesday! I made some really cute tassels, most of which were made of white wool and dyed using food colouring, but one of which I made using dark blue wool and turned into a keyring! I spent a long time on the tassels, and then went on a fun expedition to the charity shop(s)! There’s an area about five minutes walk from where I live, max, where there are four charity shops. Yup, a bit overrun with them! First/last stop was the Sue Ryder shop, where I bought the navy blue wool I mentioned above (I went there first, but actually bought the wool last, after sizing up the competition at the other charity shops!). Then followed one for a local cancer charity, where I bought a woven white heart (75p), some white yarn (can’t remember the cost) and two teacups (I think 10p each). I then nipped into our local air ambulance one, which didn’t have anything interesting, and went to one for a local school for visually impaired children, where I bought some fairy lights :). After buying the wool from the Sue Ryder shop, I was done!

I generally had a very nice afternoon mucking around with stuff in my bedroom 🙂

Now for the minor miracle: *DUN DUDUDUDUDU DUNDUNDUUUN!*

MY FOOTBALL TEAM WON! AT HOME! YESSS!

We went from 0-1 down to 2-1 up (I think) and it was awesome! I wasn’t actually watching  the match, so I’m afraid you won’t  be getting a ball-by-ball recount of the match, but I WAS working! Yay! I was in the hospitality boxes again and it was really fun 🙂 There’s a bunch of nice people there, and we get to eat the leftovers! The pudding was literally to die for, flapjacky-moussey-caramely-cheesecakey-chocolatey DELICIOUSNESS! AND NO, I AM NOT EXAGGERATING WITH MY USE OF CAPS LOCK! 😉

New Bastille music had premiered  for their Other People’s Heartache Pt. III mixtape when I returned and my sister had returned from her four-day Model United Nations conference, so it was generally an awesome day 🙂

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100 Days of Happiness {day 55} – These Boots Were Made for Walking…

and that is what they’ll do! (Or at least these Converses were!)

Yesterday I went for a walk on the seafront with my family, which was good. It was really nice to have some time which was solely about family time, which seems pretty rare these days, as everyone is just ridiculously busy!

I also rearranged my desk which was exactly my kind of fun!

Ah, lazy Sundays 🙂

An Overthinking Teenager

100 Days of Happiness {day 47} – Money,Money,Money

Shallow as I may be, money is something that made me happy today. I was asked to waitress at my local football club again, and was working in the hospitality boxes again, which was surprising as this was only my second time and the boxes are usually reserved for more experienced staff. What was really strange though was that as there were a bunch of even newer people than me, I was relatively experienced! I had fun, and earned some money into the bargain 🙂

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+ Ella Eyre’s Comeback EP is out at midnight tonight, yayyy!

100 Days of Happiness { day 9} ~ Siblings Without Rivalry

Yesterday was good for me because,  whilst helping out at work, my sister and I ended up with about three hours of spare time. What was so awesome about this was that we spent about an hour playing each other at quizzes on JetPunk (by the way, JetPunk is the best website for time wasting). The miracle being? We didn’t argue! Woo-hoo gold medal over here please! (If you hadn’t guessed, we’re pretty competitive,  and, as all teenage sisters do, spend a large proportion of our time arguing!) To round things off, I had a slice of malt loaf with my lunch, spinach and cheese tortellini for tea (yummm!) and a slice of apple loaf for dessert! Food 🙂
What kind of relationship do you have with you siblings? (Or your food, if that’s closer to your heart!)
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100 Days of Happiness, Day 1{Take 2}: Parties and Pancakes

{for a quick explanation of why I’ve restarted my 100 days, look here}

So yesterday (but technically continuing into this morning), was my dad’s fiftieth birthday party, which we’ve been preparing for for aaages. It was awesome…I saw loads of people I haven’t seen for ages (and pretended I knew some I’d barely ever seen!), ate waaay too much cake/mini eclairs and dissected/insulted MTV’s top 100 cheesiest music videos. Bliss!

Yesterday (whoops, this is supposed to be about today, but oh well…) I had my first day at work, waitressing…yay, I’m rich! (kinda). That gave me a great sense of achievement, so it definitely qualifies as part of my day of happiness!

Today, I had breakfast(/lunch, as it was at 11:30!) at the local pub with my family and non-religious-godmother, where I had American-style pancakes with maple syrup, a blueberry smoothie and a cup of tea. Very British! (if you ignore the pancakes!). It was really nice to see my non-religious-godmother, for the first time in multiple years!

So that was what made me happy today…how about you?

An Overthinking Teenager